#Playlist: Save A Life – How Music Helped Save Me…


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The idea for this post came about whilst I was contemplating creating the annual Christmas playlist I’ve done since I started Muzik Speaks back in 2015, but I quickly realised that I was purely doing it because of the time of year and with the thoughts that as a music blog, I should probably pump out something Christmassy.

Inside though, I’m just not feeling like celebrating Christmas this year and truth be told, I’ve been through a very dark patch for a few months now.

I began this blog as a lover of music (ever since I can remember) but also with the old saying in mind that “music speaks louder than words” and I truly believe that in many ways, it does…hence the blog name!

However, since September this year, I was propelled into an incredibly difficult place and since then my head has gone through a very dark, deeply depressive and isolated state and it’s only now, that I’m starting to see some distant, very small rays of light at the end of the long, outstretched tunnel ahead, but with those rays, they have brought just a scrap of positivity into my life.

During the period I mentioned, one of the first things to take a hit was my passion for music – something which has always been an obsession of mine, and looking back, that was a key indicator that I was suffering from depression, although I couldn’t recognise it at the time. I’ll be honest and say that at my lowest point, for a couple of weeks or so, I contemplated suicide almost every day, for what I was being put through and how I was being treated and self-harm was something that alleviated just a tiny bit of the desire/waves of compulsion I felt, to end my life. I wish I hadn’t I let myself get to that stage now, and would never advocate someone do that, but I share this as a plea for people to seek support from whoever and wherever they can, to help give them some much needed strength during their darkest times.

As cliché as it sounds, the song ‘1-800-273-8255’ by Logic featuring Alessia Cara and Khalid came into my life by happy accident and instantly made an impact on me – it truly kept me going for a couple of weeks straight.

And then slowly but surely over the last few weeks, my passion for music has been really reignited – by mainly angry/empowering rock songs at first; Thirty Seconds To Mars‘This Is War’ was on repeat for a few days and then more recently, Linkin Park‘s ‘Faint’. The tone to those two songs really helped me to channel the anger I was feeling about the place I was in and charged me up with a little renewed strength.

However once I’d started to get over the anger, I began to truly take time to reflect where I was at with my mental state and objectively begin to deal with my dark thoughts and the things that were eating me up inside. It was at that point that a whole host of songs began to play their part in reshaping me and helping me to truly confront with what I was going through.

That is why I decided to create a playlist that is very personal to me and filled it with the songs that had a hand in keeping me alive, helped me to regain a fraction of my normal self and begin to deal with things, each in their own unique way.

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I guess in some way, I’m hoping that this playlist will reach even just one person who is going through a similar rough patch and that it helps them to fight back against their depression and regain their confidence and love of life, or that someone who has already come out the other side can relate to this and appreciate the songs for their unique qualities, thought-provoking lyrics and/or empowering styles.

I should add that I have been very lucky to have my partner, family, some good friends and even my dog (not that she’ll ever know it) to support me through this bleak time and they too have played a vital role in helping me get through this.

Additionally, I sought some counselling – at first it was over the phone but I quickly found that I was craving some human interaction and so went to meet a counsellor and that too has been invaluable to helping me, so I recognise that whilst it’s not entirely the music that has helped me, it was during the times, when I was alone, that this music kept me company, provided me with time to think and played a vital role in aiding me to recover some of my former mental well-being.

I just think that at this time of year, people can feel so alone and having been through what I have, I understand that not everything is joyous for everyone at Christmas time and so I am hoping this playlist will provide something different for people who are feeling down, depressed or suicidal and that it might provide some sort of pick-me-up that you might need or that my story or the music strike a chord with someone and give them something to stop and think about.

My message to anyone who is struggling is just know that things can get better if you hang in there. Believe in yourself and most importantly, take each day as it comes. Fill your time with things you enjoy doing, however small or simple – embrace them. Talk to whoever you feel comfortable talking to, whether it be friends, family or someone anonymous via a helpline – don’t bottle things up. Find joy in music you love, films you enjoy or any other things you like to do and try to take your mind off what you’re worrying about and try to envisage what a happier future would look like.

Finally, I really would like to take the time to ask you to donate to a good cause – if you are going through something similar to me, you have already been through it and managed to come out the other side or even just that you have enjoyed this playlist or felt something for my story, then please visit our JustGiving page www.justgiving.com/muzik-speaks or www.papyrus-uk.org/donate (please quote Muzik Speaks somewhere in your donation) and make a donation – £5 is enough to pay for one phone call, text or e-mail with a young person – you truly can help ‘Save a Life’.

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If you have a story you are willing to share or you want to discuss anything in this post, then please leave a comment; I would just ask that you remain sensitive with what you write on this post please. I also urge you that if you yourself are feeling suicidal or you are concerned about someone, to please call PAPYRUS on 0800 068 4141, text 07786 209697 or e-mail pat@papyrus-uk.org – whilst I am always happy to talk, I’m not a trained professional but people at PAPYRUS are, and will do their best to help.


#MellowMonday: Muzik Speaks’ 1st Birthday Playlist

Here’s a playlist of all the #MellowMonday songs we’ve featured during our first year…enjoy!

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This week, Muzik Speaks turns 1 year old and to celebrate, we’re giving you a themed playlist, for each day this week. The playlist will contain all of the songs we’ve featured on our blog during the past year, all themed around the corresponding day.

Today, it’s #MellowMonday and our playlist includes:

  1. Chris Malinchak – So Good To Me
  2. Coldplay – Magic
  3. OneRepublic – Can’t Stop
  4. Foster The People – Pumped Up Kicks
  5. Macklemore & Ryan Lewis – Same Love
  6. Miley Cyrus – Adore You
  7. You+Me – Unbeliever
  8. The Barr Brothers – Even The Darkness Has Arms
  9. ODESZA – All We Need featuring Shy Girls
  10. Passenger – David
  11. Lucy Rose – Our Eyes
  12. Shura – 2Shy
  13. Jesse Boykins III – Plain
  14. Grimes – Entropy
  15. Sigma – Changing featuring Paloma Faith (GoldSmyth Edition)
  16. The Pierces – I’ll Be Dreaming
  17. Janet Jackson – No Sleeep
  18. Chris Brown – Liquor
  19. Randy Newman – You’ve Got A Friend In Me
  20. Lana Del Rey – Once Upon A Dream
  21. Vindata – All I Really Need
  22. Sam Feldt – Show Me Love featuring Kimberly Anne
  23. Lost Frequencies – Are You With Me
  24. Etta James – At Last
  25. Hayley Kiyoko – Girls Like Girls
  26. Justin Bieber – What Do You Mean?
  27. Timeflies – Stuck With Me
  28. Ryan Adams – Bad Blood
  29. Chicane – Ibiza Strings
  30. The Japanese House – Cool Blue
  31. The Fray – How To Save A Life
  32. Years & Years – Eyes Shut
  33. Celtic Woman – The Voice
  34. Ella Eyre – We Don’t Have To Take Our Clothes Off
  35. Cher – You Take It All
  36. Said The Sky – Nostalgia featuring Missio
  37. Will Young – What The World Needs Now Is Love
  38. Hearts & Colors – Fireflies
  39. Alex Parks – Get Out
  40. Snakehips – All My Friends featuring Tinashe & Chance The Rapper
  41. Maroon 5 – Animals (Gryffin Remix)
  42. Yuna – Tourist
  43. Sia – Breathe Me
  44. Timbaland – Don’t Get No Betta featuring Mila J
  45. Shura – Touch featuring Talib Kweli
  46. Lisa Goe – Still In Love

If you want to download the songs and use a custom cover for them, here’s one we’ve made for you 🙂


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Follow the playlist – https://open.spotify.com/user/muzik5peaks/playlist/5n77gdqWl0MDJ87zxNLxcz

#Playlist: April 2015

Hey-hey campers!

This month’s compilation is a corker! As with last month, we’re bringing you both a YouTube and Spotify playlist of all of this month’s featured songs!

Muzik Speaks has now been live for 2 whole months and it’s growing fast! We’ve got a brand new writer, Max Paillard, who so far, has brought you some amazing Wild-Card Wednesday tunes and I’m personally looking forward to seeing what he brings next!

This month has brought you some fantastic tracks from the likes of; Lucy Spraggan, Macklemore, Miley Cyrus and Nick Jonas as well as songs from independent bands, like TEAM, New City Kings and The Barr Brothers and finally we’ve thrown-back your Thursdays with Bomfunk MCs, Fragma, Owl City and of course, the late Lil’ Chris.

We hope you enjoy these songs from April 2015, all over again, in one place – once again, sorry some of the tracks are missing from the Spotify playlist – some haven’t been released yet and some have been removed from Spotify by the artist/band.

Note: You can view the whole YouTube playlist by using the dropdown menu at the top corner of the video, or skip a song using the ‘next’ button.


We’d like to ask you, to go ahead and ‘like’ our Facebook page (www.facebook.com/muzikspeaks) and ‘follow’ us on Twitter (www.twitter.com/muzik_speaks). Then if you could please post a status or send a tweet to your followers and friends to ask them to check us out, we’d be really grateful! We want to grow this community and we honestly can’t do it without your support!

Lastly, please please feel free to respond to our posts on Facebook or leave comments on each of our blog posts with your own tracks for each of the daily themes – we want to hear what you’re listening to because we love music as much as you, and we really enjoy finding out about new tunes. Thanks so much.

Matt – Muzik Speaks

#MellowMonday: You+Me – ‘Unbeliever’

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This song is beautiful; in fact this duo sound beautiful! Their album is stunning too!

In case you haven’t heard of them, You+Me are comprised of two sensational singers; P!nk (Alecia Moore) and Dallas Green (AKA ‘City & Colour’ and singer of post-hardcore band ‘Alexisonfire’). The project came about when the two met through mutual friends. They sang together on various tours, just as friends, until one day their schedules opened up and they got together to compose some original songs.

This song hasn’t actually been released from the album, however it’s such a beautiful song, it needs to be shared. The video below is a live performance of the song, but it sounds pretty true to the album track. I also love the way Pink messes up – it’s endearing.

Please share the link to this song as it deserves to be heard by many! What #MellowMonday track are you listening to today? Leave a comment below.

Matt – Muzik Speaks